Why I keep on going...

This person. this wonderful person is the reason I'm still here. Life wouldn't be life without her in it.http://www.geocities.com/glam_x/silvycyberwhitby.jpgSilvara- you make it all worthwhile. We'll be together again soon.

You know something?

I'm a geek. I love sci fi Tv shows and movies, I collect pulp 50's and 60's sci fi paperbacks, I have an encyclopedic knowledge of movies, comics, action figures and anime. I sell overpriced comics and toys to an unsuspecting public. I write scripts for geeky sci fi organizations for their CD dramas and write bad dark fantasy. I am doing nothing at all to make the world a better place.but, I still feel like a better person that George 'Calling me Simian would be an insult to monkeys' Bush.It may be an early sign of me aging, but WHAT the FOOK is up with the world?????

A day off? Huzzah!

Got my council tax bill this morning- fuckers still haven't changed the amount I pay- ITS BEEN 5 FUCKIN' MONTHS YOU TITS! I'M ON MY OWN!!!!! *sighs* I'm off to gripe about them still not giving me my single person's discount now Silvy's in the USA again. it took 'em this long to do owt and now they've done it wrong!!!!Still, I'm making sure today isn't all bad. Posted some ebay stuff and a couple of cheques, stocked up on hamster food and cleaned Sweetheart, Princess and Tanuki's cage out. They're all zipping around like 'WOW, our place doesn't smell like wee now!'I'm gothing the flat up a bit today too- I keep finding flyers and piccies I've not put up so that's cool. Gotta keep active. I'm looking forward to when Silvy gets back and we can start decorating the place totally Japanese! :D Graves park is looking like a good destination later toady too- I could do with a walk. things to think over.Right, I'm off to pay some rent and bitch at the council. Huzzah!

Gubbins

Last night's pubmeet was good fun, despite me having to leave at 10.30 due to being knackered (I'd been out since 7.30am)- nice to see the Batfink types there, and lovely to see Oliver and Chris from Neuvogue too.Oliver tells me PX turned up after I left. Ah well. I'll be there next week- I need the company! I'd go mentla otherwise- work is chuffing me about as ever.I'm slowly but surely getting back into the flow with my non-work related projects, namely the 2 scripts for Fineline productions and the resurgence of my songwriting. I'm gonna complete the 15 minute script for FL before i get really stuck into the full length one, just to warm up. Music wise a few songs are shaping up nicely. I may go with the name 'Discordia' or something similar for it for the goth/darkwave/industrial/whatever project, taken from the comic book concept I brainstomed last year.I'm gonna keep this new outlook. I like it and it suits me. I'm seeing friends old and new whenever I can and pottering away on things that make me happy. takes the edge off how crappy life can be. And hey, there are plenty of people in worse circumstances. I should count myself lucky.

An observation:

Scaring townie youths with music at work is fun. Long may it reign!hello to the goths and gothettes. I'm off for some kip.

What a Blah day

Arse. Couldn't gpo to the pubmeet despite me looking forward to it. I didnt get into town til 9.40pm from work and am 3 days' pay short thanks to the git that is February, so there wasn't much point. Bugger. Hopefully I'll make it next week. Its typical- the lunches and pubmeet are on a wednesday, and when's my ONE late night in the week? wednesday!Ah well. Found some ebay stuff I should have sent weeks ago- Yikes!The pile of random lyrics and skethces next to my bed is growing to terrifying proportions. Ah well, at least it's clearing my head out a bit, which is good.The flat is empty and lonely. Sure there's 25 dwarf hamsters here whom I love to bits, but they ca't talk back. Apart from lil, who still appears to be able to say the word 'COCK' when she squeaks....Enjoyed the last bit of my shift- The Lanes were empty due to maintenence work (the oasis is getting a revamp so the place is a dump at the mo) and thus I could pump out some serious volume. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Industrial noise......yummy.

Wotta Weekend

*phew* I'm knackered but I feel great. batfink was great fun, and it was lovely to introduce Steve, Chris and jenny to it's delights. FACT: I dance like a fool and probably always will. FACT: Jozafeen, Helen, Meltie (and the other names I've forgotten) are some of the nicest people I've met in years.FACT: I miss Silvara all the more for it.I feel rather guilty for having such an amazing weekend, and wish she could have shared it with me. Things have just been so horrible lately, so difficult and desperately upsetting, that i needed some fun. I got it.thanks to everyone I met :)PS- Silvy: I love you to bits :x